Monday, 22 January 2018

An open letter to anyone struggling with debt or financially




Struggling with debt or financially? It is not the end of the world.
There was a time (four years ago) in my life when everyone around me moved into their own apartments, bought their own cars etc. While I still stayed at my mom’s house and to be honest I felt bad and literally became discontent. My friends would pick me up with their own cars, we would go to restaurants, hang out together etc.

There was so much pressure to compete I felt like an outcast simply because I didn’t have what they all had, I became so frustrated and just felt like something was wrong with me, Why me? etc. All sorts of negative questions were running through my mind, and yes we can sometimes allow the pressures of this world to influence us and drive us towards detrimental choices for our future. Comparison is the cousin of COVET we need to guard our hearts and minds from comparison at all times and if you truly understand TIME and SEASON, trust me you will envy no one. 

1 John 5:21 (AMP)
21 Little children (believers, dear ones), guard yourselves from idols—[false teachings, moral compromises, and anything that would take God’s place in your heart].

In my journey I came to realize that just because I was taking longer than others does not mean I am a failure.  I shared in one of my blog posts “from the pit to the palace” my journey from having little to having much as I said “no” to a lot of money and yes to “little” money and at that time I didn’t understand it until the Lord spoke to me during that season. I’ve grown to learn that we will never know the fullness of Christ until we know the emptiness of everything else and I am truly so thankful for that season because the Lord circumcised my heart from a lot of things, God is our source but if and when we depend on “our money “to sustain us we lose it all as scripture says in:

 Luke 16:10
10 He who is faithful in what is least is faithful also in much; and he who is unjust in what is least is unjust also in much.

 The Lord has literally been so faithful to me and I can go on and on about His constant faithfulness. I live in my own apartment now, fully furnished and I did not have to get myself into debt to get all my furniture I literally took a step of faith and decided to depend on the Lord for everything and simply just refused to get into any debt but to trust Him and I am not in any sense saying that I am perfect but this is my testimony of provision, if He could do it for me He can do it for you too.. It is entirely possible to live a debt free life (I mean getting into debt for:  furniture, gadgets, clothes, food, etc.) Everything on the earth belongs to the Lord and we can confidently trust Him for anything be it a car, a house etc. These past 5 years taught me how to trust and fully depend on the Lord for His provision (in every area of my life) and trust me it has not been the easiest journey but so worth it as my faith muscles has been stretched on another level.

In January 2017 I had just come from my holiday in South Africa and then my cellphone (I bought this phone 4 years ago in India) all of a sudden just gave up on me upon my arrival back in Namibia and it was very frustrating. I was so driven by my frustration that I literally went to a clothing store to open an account just to take a cellphone on account and pay it off in three months (so I thought) but as I stood there I was convicted as I didn’t trust God to come through for me and  then I walked out. I was only trusting God for a Samsung J1 cellphone nothing more nothing less, and a few days later I then decided to take a bold step of faith, surrender my need to the Lord and boldly trust Him to come through for me... and BOOM! In exactly three days’ time the Lord came through for me and blessed me with an iPhone cellphone huh? and I only wanted a Samsung J1!  I then heard the Lord say to me: “Ndeshi, my thoughts are not your thoughts don’t limit me based on what you see, I have nothing but the BEST in store for you. Gosh! He is so faithful!!!! 

This scripture was and is still in its truest sense a manifestation in my life:

1 Corinthians 2:9
But as it is written:
“Eye has not seen, nor ear heard,
Nor have entered into the heart of man
The things which God has prepared for those who love Him.”


So what is it that you need? We can only access it by FAITH by drawing close to Jesus

Carrying a weight of debt or struggling financially? Don’t condemn yourself? Surrender your debt to the Lord? Nothing is impossible with Him. God is not limited to our ABILITY and CAPACITY. Your job is a channel. If you think that your job is what keeps you financially secure, you’re going to be insecure your entire life. You’ve got to understand that God is the SOURCE of your supply, and you can depend on Him to know exactly what you need and give it to you.  Your salary is a blessing and blessings come at a cost and responsibility. How can we want more? and how can He give us more? if we cannot be faithful stewards with what He has blessed and entrusted us with? 

Luke 16:11
 11 Therefore if you have not been faithful in the unrighteous mammon, who will commit to your trust the true riches? 

Prepare yourself to be a good steward over what God has blessed you with and about to bless you with exceedingly and more abundantly it is never too late to start now. Let your trust in God speak louder than the opinions of people, let your trust in God speak louder than your circumstances and let us choose to cast all our care on Him for He cares for us in and out of season  (1 Peter 5:7) He is our Father and He knows what we have need of even before we ask.

Here’s a few principles of which helped me stay the course in my financial discipline for the past 5 years:

1.TITHE (Malachi 3:8-12 this area is a HEART issue)

2.Realize that your salary/income is a blessing

3.STEWARDSHIP is of utmost importance, we need to be faithful stewards over our portion.

4.Identify your NEEDS from your WANTS, set up a monthly budget and be accountable.

5.Plan thoroughly (especially if you buy a lot of fast food, going out to spend at restaurants, entertainment etc.)

6.If and when going to the grocery store make a list of what you are going to
buy and stick to it (not to overspend)

7.If you are in debt take it to the Lord in prayer and ask Him to clear it for you (Surrender and Trust Him)

8.Take your list of needs/wants to the Lord (put it on your prayer alter)

9.Pray for wisdom? And steward faithfully as He grants wisdom.

10.Discipline is Key and a disciplined life is a PRINCIPLED life.


In His love

Ndeshi Jameson




Friday, 1 December 2017

Healthier choices? But WHY?




Anyone Who knows me knows that I am extremely health conscious as I became quiet yesterday afternoon I had a tug on my heart to share reasons for my “health conscious craziness”. Back in 2015 late in November I have been vomiting for a consistent two weeks straight, normally I would first try and play doctor at home and would try out home remedies (bahaha) can anyone else relate? Well my condition became worse in the second week. Decided to go see a doctor but he said it was just oily food and gave me something to treat the nausea and the vomiting, so I decided to just relax. A few days later my condition worsened while driving on my way to the shops (sitting behind the steering wheel) I then started feeling weak and dizzy and decided to drive back home immediately, packed a few things and drove myself to the hospital and signed in for admittance.
Doctors did examine me and ran a few tests on me but could not tell even after 3 days of being admitted what the prognosis was. As stubborn as I was I then decided discharge myself from the hospital and literally lied to the doctor that I am feeling a 100% fine and that I would prefer going home. To be honest I couldn’t handle being in the Hospital for 3 days and doctors not telling me what was wrong with me, they just kept injecting me with something to stop the nausea and the vomiting. Doctor was convinced and then discharged me from the hospital that same day in the afternoon. Midnight on that very same day I was re-admitted again as my condition worsened at home to be honest this was the scariest season of my entire life. I felt helpless and just cried out to God for help and clarity, the doctor who was on call that very same night attended to me in the morning she started doing some more tests and later during the day gave me the diagnosis which was H-Pylori seemed like it was caused by food poisoning. 

(While on the recovery mend February 2016)

Helicobacter pylori (H. pylori) is a type of bacteria. These germs can enter your body and live in your digestive tract. After many years, they can cause sores, called ulcers, in the lining of your stomach or the upper part of your small intestine. For some people, an infection can lead to stomach cancer.

The lining in my stomach was badly hurt so most things I ate after my discharge from hospital (even healthy food) was causing discomfort and pain, my face was swollen for months. I was booked off for a full month to recover at home, I started doing exercise, started cutting out sweets, sugar, fizzy drinks, I tried to cut out most unhealthy food also medication which consists of ASPIRIN and foods that would add to the acid in my body especially while out with friends at restaurants I would always prefer a healthier option even if it is not a 100% healthy. The transition has been difficult but persistence has definitely been very rewarding at least after 10 months of persistence my life started becoming normal again. Doctors did give me medication for the treatment for some time and I actually became very dependent upon the medication as I had so much fear, I then started praying to God to heal me, to guide me, and to help me, I would meditate on healing scriptures. It was during this season that the Lord started teaching me more about taking care of my body especially if I desire to live longer for the edification of His body. Since I started making more healthier choices especially towards my diet this are the results:

·  I have a lot of energy

· My sleeping pattern is normal

·   Don’t feel as tired and weighed down anymore.

· I can hear the Lord speak to me clearly

· My emotional, hormonal, spiritual, physical well-being is more balanced

· My skin is healthier and clear

                                    Transitioning tips:



·  I try my utmost best to wash my hands regularly.


·  Prepare food at home and take to work (which means less spending on fast food)


·  Blend Smoothies for breakfast.


· Prepare my meat, fish and chicken in a more healthier way e.g in the oven then: 


· I use plant based spices e.g Italian herbs, mixed herbs, coriander, sea salt etc


·I try and use olive oil and coconut oil for cooking, dressing and frying (especially the coconut oil).
 
To be honest eating more unhealthy drains you emotional, physically, spiritual and mentally, and I know not everyone wants to hear that however I do not regret embarking on this journey as it gets better every day and it starts with discipline scripture does say:

 
Galatians 5:16-18 (NKJV)

 16 I say then: Walk in the Spirit, and you shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh. 17 For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; and these are contrary to one another, so that you do not do the things that you wish. 18 But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the law.”

1 Corinthians 6:19-20 (NKJV)

Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own? 20 For you were bought at a price; therefore glorify God in your body[c] and in your spirit, which are God’s.

There is a constant war between the flesh and the spirit. It is not about the gratification of the flesh our body is the temple of the Holy spirit and self control is important in every area of our lives, we cannot always be lead by our feelings or what we want to eat.
This health scare was literally a wake-up call to be intentional to look after myself emotionally, physically, spiritually and mentally.  Living in Kolkata, India laid the foundation as I had no choice but to become a vegetarian  for one year (and it was during this time I learned how to cook without meat etc.) and I should say God is so faithful and strategic as He knew I needed that season of preparation to be intentional now. While cleaning my apartment on a Sunday morning recently I just heard the Holy spirit say: “If you are so concerned about keeping your apartment clean and to live  in a clean & tidy place how much more your body?  Which is the temple of the Holy spirit?” Quite frankly I literally got a shock and threw the broom one side (laughs) since I am a very neat and tidy person (Holy spirit conviction). 
I really do not want to get to age 50 and have so many non communicable diseases, after marriage I still want to see my babies grow up and walk in their purposes (hehe).

It is always easier to choose what we want now and not what is beneficial for ourselves in the long run and obedience is so much more better than sacrifice and yes, it is not an easy journey and I am growing to learn that  it can only get easier by leaning on His grace daily. Well it has been 14 months of healthy bliss(yeah) I have not been to the doctor in these months except for treatment regarding a terrible flu. I have been changed, healed, freed, and delivered God is so so so faithful and to Him be All the Glory and All the Honor!!

For more information regarding H-pylori here is a few more links:




If you are going through a health scare season? Don’t panic? Ask God to guide you, heal you, try healthier options and meditate on healing scriptures. He is our Great Physician!


In His love


Ndeshi Jameson 


(On my birthday recently 10 October 2017)





Thursday, 2 March 2017

Tough valley? What are you saying?




As I was reading Ezekiel chapter 37 on a Saturday morning God dropped this in my spirit “what are you speaking in your valley”? 

Psalm 23:4 says
Even though I walk through the darkest valley I will fear no evil, for you are with me; Your rod and your staff they comfort me.”

A valley- is a season or period of time where you feel alone (even though you are not) in your suffering or trial into it... whether physically or mentally. It is a time that is very difficult and extremely hard to work through, it is a silent season, it’s not death, but it can feel just as difficult emotionally to deal with.


Natural valley- an area of low land between hills or mountains, often with a river running through it.

Valley fact: When the water flows from a mountain, the steeper it is the faster the water flows , and the deeper the valley it is that is created.

I have been going through a valley season which for me has been very challenging, as the Lord has been directing me into a different and new dimension in my life, at times when God give us the promise and direction to steer us into His will and purpose for our lives we sometimes get too excited and quickly haste to give birth to the promise, we casually go into it without taking it to Him through prayer and supplication asking for wisdom, guidance and understanding or rather too impatient to wait for His answer. I believe it is in the valley that we need to sit at His feet, allow His word to wash us  Many times, when God says this is “what I am going to do” we think it is just going to come easy and that’s what I thought too many times in my walk with God. Serving God will cost you everything my darling and you need to be willing to let go of everything in order grow, need to be willing to lay down your life daily, to submit to Him in everything you say and do, to take up your cross and follow Him daily, to let go of the old wine skins (mindsets) in order to embrace the new in a new season because you cannot pour new wine into old wine-skins (mindsets).

Growth takes places in the valley too because there is water, and water can sustain us which represents the WORD of God. 

I believe it is in the valley that we are challenged to get quiet to hear Him like never before, to press into His presence like never before. This is a season to cultivate our spirit, to spend time with God, grow and rest in Him. 


Ezekiel 37:1-6 (nkjv)

The hand of the Lord came upon me and brought me out in the Spirit of the Lord, and set me down in the midst of the valley; and it was full of bones. 2 Then He caused me to pass by them all around, and behold, there were very many in the open valley; and indeed, they were very dry. 3 And He said to me, “Son of man, can these bones live?” So, I answered, “O Lord God, you know.” 4 Again He said to me, “Prophesy to these bones, and say to them, ‘O dry bones, hear the word of the Lord! 5 Thus says the Lord God to these bones: “Surely I will cause breath to enter into you, and you shall live. 6 I will put sinews on you and bring flesh upon you, cover you with skin and put breath in you; and you shall live. Then you shall know that I am the Lord.”’

God sat Ezekiel down in the midst of the valley and asked him if those dry bones could live, Ezekiel gave a skeptical answer “O Lord God, you know” he too was not so sure if they could live especially as he could physically see how extremely dry it was. God reminded me that I do not have to continue to fight for victory in my own strength but that I should be fighting from victory won at the cross for me 2000 years ago, with His spirit at work in me, more often I would try and do things in my own wisdom and strength and get frustrated when things don't work out (bhaha) can you relate?  And it is in times like this that He reminds me to know Him in all of my ways, because He is my Father, and then awesomely reminds me of the power we as His Sons truly do possess through the blood of the lamb, power to speak to dead situations, power to break every chain, to speak healing, power to uproot mountains etc. The enemy has blinded us so much so that we cannot fully grasp what Christ did on the Cross for us, He says in:

Mark 10:19

 “Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and nothing shall by any means hurt you”

I allowed myself to be distracted, my focus was more on what my natural environment dictated to me than what God said I was more frustrated than prayerful.  As I was meditating on Ezekiel 37 on that specific Saturday morning spending time in His word the Holy spirit ministered to me and reminded me of the power given to me, reminded me how I didn’t speak life to the dry bones in my valley, I murmured, complaint, I felt tired (emotionally, physically spiritually and mentally) and felt like running away from what God has purposed for me (like Jonah did) and that’s all the more reason why I didn’t see any fruit or progress during this season in my life. You see barrenness sets in if and when we murmur, and complain, by not cultivating our spirit in Him, spend time at His feet and in His word we will not see any fruit. The enemy is after you because of what's inside of you, when he cannot destroy you, his job is to distract you from your purpose and everything else. The best thing about the Lord speaking He tells us the truth about ourselves yet still loves and pursues us relentlessly with all our mistakes etc. He is such an intentional and faithful God truly He is, He keeps reminding me of His great power at work in me and how I can authoritatively use it to speak life in every area of my life, to speak what I desire to manifest (and it will be so). I was more focused on how I felt and not on what His word said about me, my life and circumstances etc. We are the music we listen to, the movies and series we watch, we are the company we keep. It is very important to discern what seeds we sow and doors we open up in every season we transition into. Guard your heart above all else? What seeds are you sowing in your life and that of others? Are you running to the Lord in prayer or are you running to people?

Ephesians 3:20 (NCV)

20 “With God’s power working in us, God can do much, much more than anything we can ask or imagine.”

You will not understand every part of the journey that's why the Holy Spirit has to be your most trusted advisor while faith serves as your mode of transportation. Don’t be too hard on yourself? Don't park there? Move on and continue to press on towards the mark of the high calling? Praise Him in your valley? Worship Him? Give Him all the glory and honor regardless of what it looks like it is never easy but so much more worth it God promised to never bring us this far to leave nor forsake us, He can't because He lives inside of us. Remember your purpose is not about you but it's about what God wants to do through you. It is normal to go through a valley season, when seasons change trees shed leaves to prepare for the next season in fact we will go through different seasons continually these seasons are needed to equip, prune, purge, purify and mold us into vessels He desires us to be for His glory in and out of season. 

This season is teaching me to:

1.Speak life in every area of my life and those around me daily.
2.My feelings are never constant, to have an attitude of PRAISE!
3.To stay rooted and build up in God and scar my mind with His word continually.
4.To press into the Lord daily and cast down every care unto Him
5.To seek more of His kingdom, and pursue His desires, His will and purpose for my life.
6.To surround myself with like-minded believers, to fellowship together by the breaking of bread (word of God) and giving myself fully as unto the Lord to build others up, pray for them and encourage them in the Lord.
7.To love and give myself fully through serving without expecting anything in return. 

I’ve learned that when I don't pull aside for the Lord in this fast-paced life, I eventually end up running on fumes or depending on myself and get extremely overwhelmed! I don't believe that it's the will of our Father to be so distracted, exhausted and busy that we no longer spend time with the Lord. Saying "yes" to everyone and everything can very easily clutter your Spirit man. AND, it's NOT worth it! Are you going through a valley season right now? Could be in your marriage, loss of a loved one,  in your career, your family etc. Do you feel tired and overwhelmed? I encourage you to make time for the Lord, run to Him? Vent your heart and frustrations out before Him? Spending time with the Lord gives us perspective, it refuels us and gives us hope.




Stay rooted and build up in Him saints, stand firm on the promises of God and let your mouth always be filled with praises? He who is in us is greater than He that is in the world we are fighting from VICTORY! 


In His love
Ndeshi Jameson
In Pretoria, South Africa on holiday recently (December 2016)



Monday, 29 August 2016

Promotion; From the pit to the palace

Excited to share my journey of promotion over the past 3 years, where God brought me from to where He has me right now. I can honestly say that it has not been an easy journey but I can attest to God’s constant faithfulness & the beauty of this journey in the midst of every test, trial and tribulation. This is my testimony & every praise is to our God.

January 2013

I was desperate for a new start & saw an advertisement for Cabin Crew training on Facebook, applied for it on the very same day and just two days later I received an acceptance letter which initially meant that I met all the body & weight requirements to become a cabin crew attendant. Had doubts and did not know if I was doing the right thing or if it would work out as I needed a lot of money, my faith was challenged by the physical circumstances but I started praying and asking the Father for wisdom, guidance and understanding. Within one week the Father provided for my flight ticket to India, Kolkata including for accommodation, transport and training fees. He is such a faithful Father if we rest in the bosom that we are His Sons and He is our Father.

India, Kolkata:

Living in Kolkata India changed me spiritually, physically and mentally. I never understood why God took me to India, I was so excited to travel but getting there was something totally different as I came from a very small country that is sparsely populated and India is densely populated. I was confused, traumatized and started asking God so many questions, I murmured, complained, and had a negative attitude and just wanted to return back home as it wasn’t what I thought it would be. I started seeking God’s face earnestly, to enquire His mandate for my life in India & to heed to that which He wants me to do I then decided to turn my complaining into praise regardless of how things looked like.  It was then and there in that apartment that I was reminded that He knows the plans that He has for me, plans to prosper me and not to harm me, I knew He didn’t take me so far to leave and forsake me. We do not have to understand everything that God is sometimes doing in our lives we need only to trust in Him and being in Kolkata taught me so many valuable lessons, the journey stretched me and strengthened my faith in God being in the refiner’s fire molded me and I am truly thankful for every trial and tribulation which lead to the purification of my character. 

Malachi 3:2 (NKJV)
“But who can endure the day of His coming?
And who can stand when He appears?
For He is like a refiner’s fire
And like launderers’ soap.
He will sit as a refiner and a purifier of silver;
He will purify the sons of Levi,
And purge them as gold and silver,
That they may offer to the Lord
An offering in righteousness
.

Me on the right and my class mates

I couldn’t understand the confusion, trials and tribulations or what the Lord was doing at that time but everything else pushed me closer to Christ & all things work together for the good of those who love Him. I made a conscious choice to seek His counsel regarding every decision I had to make. It was then and there (in the refiner’s fire) when I started to heed to His voice the more I spent time in the Word of God and in prayer the more I became sensitive to His guidance. This scripture has been and is still a reality in my life:


Proverbs 3:5-6 (NKJV)
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
6 In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths


Getting back to Namibia:

While still in India by the end of my Cabin Crew Training me and Jeanette (a friend from Namibia who was also part of the cabin crew training) tried our utmost best to send our applications to different airlines especially in the middle east, America & Britain as we knew they were paying very well.  We could not get any placements (internship) in India as we were foreigners & only Indian citizens had that privilege. What attracted me to be a Cabin Attendant was not only for the traveling but more especially for the money.

Jeanette on the left and me on the right



American Airlines:

Got a response from American Airline by the beginning of November 2013 & it was a very good offer, I was so happy and excited to return back home and get my visa and fly off to America to start working as a flight attendant. Coming back home from India my family did not agree with me going to America and they completely rejected the job offer not knowing that it was in God’s will for me not to go, I cried my eyes out and couldn’t understand all the “why’s”. I started praying again and asked God for wisdom, guidance and understanding & became quiet with God’s word only to hear God say to me: “Ndeshi I did not send you to India to become a cabin crew, I took you there to become totally dependent on me, to seek me for who and what I truly am and not for what you can get from me”, that gave me so much assurance and peace to let His will in my life be done.




December 2013


I got a job as a “Filing Clerk” at a local company, & had to reject the contract at American Airline which was a basic salary range from $24.511 (USD) up to $70,467 (USD) with an hourly rate that ranges from $16.24 to $50.50 (USD) & on top of the basic pay travel privileges, career development programs, savings & retirement, health and life benefits and settle for a $118 (USD) salary as a filing clerk which was (N$ 1600) how sad is that huh? God truly does have a sense of humor huh?
(1 Corinthians 1:27) “But God has chosen the foolish things of the world, that he may put to shame the wise; and God has chosen the weak things of the world, that he may put to shame the strong things;”

 While working for that local company my prayer became; “Lord I know you have me here for a purpose and a plan, reveal it to me? Open and enlighten the eyes of my understanding to see” and slowly but surely the Lord answered me, and started showing me that it was not about me but about Him & His purpose for my life


If I chose the American airline contract over the $118USD (N$1600) salary trust me my life would have been a wreck right now, God showed me “much “in the little salary I got, He started disciplining me financially, He started building character in me with different personality’s that I had to deal with & I was reminded of the story of Joseph at that time & meditating on Joseph’s story gave me wisdom to apply certain principles in my working environment and to serve. While working as a “Filing Clerk” I felt humiliated and always compared myself with other people, I felt inferior but it was during that time that God was stripping me, purging me and pruning me of everything that was unlike Him & His purpose for my life including friends that I hanged out with and the mindset I had. See God had to remove everything that was unlike Him because they could not go where God was taking me, you see it was extremely unpleasant for me at that time but that was how God was preparing me for the next season not knowing that my season as a “filing clerk” was a stepping stone in birthing my purpose. God has a purpose and plan for our lives but that plan is under constant attack and the enemy isn't always dressed in black. It is the things that are right and noble and good from a natural stand point that keep us back from God's best. The greatest enemy in choosing God's best is our own strong compulsion to choose what's good, but not every good choice is God's choice and the difference can radically affect our future happiness. 



1 Year & a half later

In June 2015 I got a new job as Receptionist/ Administrative Assistant” 

and just   1 year and a month later in July 2016 I stepped into a position of Personal Assistant to the Service Director of an Industrial & Marine engine sales and services company. View every situation in which you find yourself as specially arranged by God to train you and develop some aspect of your character or personality. You may find yourself in some unexpected or unpleasant situations, but do not complain. Remember Joseph in the prison? I cannot say that I enjoyed most of my time in my desert or wilderness, but I thank God for the way it equipped me for what lay ahead.
Little did I know my gifting in administration, working as unto God and not unto man that elevates & makes room for me, Elevation is always preceded by a renewed mind. God honored Joseph’s integrity, promotion came from the Lord! Joseph’s principle was INTEGRITY doing the right thing may cost you. It may bring you difficulties. It may seem to be a bigger price than your integrity is worth. That is never the case! No Refunds! If you spend your integrity you will find that it cannot be bought back. You will own what you have bought. There are no refunds! Integrity is always worth more than the price you pay to keep it intact. You will never know what God has waiting for you, unless you make integrity your constant companion on your journey through life. 
Your willingness to do the right thing will move God to take you to the right place… a good place! 
(1 Chronicles 28:9 nkjv) “…serve Him with a loyal heart and with a willing mind; for the LORD searches all hearts and understands all the intents of the thought. 

Our fear towards God should be greater than towards man that’s why it is so important to work not as unto man but unto God because He knows and understands all the intends of the thoughts. God’s plans are to give us hope, prosperity in every area of our lives and a future and never to harm us if we allow Him to direct and guide our lives. Sometimes we make our own plans without involving Him and contradictory to His plans and we fail or not working out. I have experienced this personally but when we move according to His plans and allow Him to guide us, the results are just wonderful and awesome.


Proverbs 18:16 (nkjv)
“A man’s gift makes room for him,
And brings him before great men.”

When you are truly serving God, taking on His nature and putting Him on display your gift will make room for you even if you are a cleaner or whatever your occupation might be do it as unto the Lord. Sometimes we ask for certain things that we desire in prayer & just when the Lord answers we become frustrated and want something else again, our answered prayers come with their own set of frustrations, trials & victory's the key is to ask God to show you and guide you towards His will for your life & to enlighten your eyes to see. I worked for the money before & it was frustrating & very stressful to a point where I even got sick but when you work for the love of doing it & not unto man but unto God He rewards our obedience. People do not promote you but God does because He looks at the heart, I am so at peace in this season to know that I am not working for the money but that I am walking in my purpose daily and that I am pursuing God’s will for my life as that is the safest place to be in. We cannot separate God from our work, our occupation is our calling & when we seek Him first in everything else He delights Himself in each and every one of our heart's desires.

Psalm 24:1 (nkjv)
“The earth is the Lord’s, and all its fullness,
The world and those who dwell therein”

Exodus 31:1 (nkjv)
“Then the Lord spoke to Moses, saying: “See, I have called by name Bezalel the son of Uri, the son of Hur, of the tribe of Judah. And I have filled him with the Spirit of God, in wisdom, in understanding, in knowledge, and in all manner of workmanship, to design artistic works, to work in gold, in silver, in bronze, in cutting jewels for setting, in carving wood, and to work in all manner of workmanship.”

He has called us by name and filled us with His spirit, in wisdom, in understanding & in knowledge to work in all manner of workmanship. The key question: Will we do our best not to lose control over what we have control over – the integrity of our hearts. Or, will we surrender to the temptations, the cravings and the easy ways out? We may not always be in control of our circumstances, but we can choose what we willingly surrender our hearts to.


I pray you are encouraged thank you for reading God bless & abundance be yours!


In His love 
Ndeshi Jameson






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